Upper, downer, whatever

About time

2008-04-19T14:27:00.002+09:00

I don't give up easily but I feel that I have to let go. I'll be ready soon, I hope.

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Smetimes some people get me wrong
When it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun
That's why you turn and run
But now I truly realise
Some people don't wanna compromise
Well I saw them with my own eyes
Spreading those lies
And well I don't wanna live my life
Too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights
I'm sorry to say baby

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
Things you say you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby
Don't listen to the games they play
Boy, I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other girls
Coz I saw them with my own eyes
You should've been more wise
And well I don't wanna live my life
Too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights
I'm sorry to say baby

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better dayI'm walking away

I'm getting tired, seriously. You say that I ask you to do things that are impossible. But if you really really love me, then they shouldn't be that hard. They were hard for me at first too but then I always thought you were worth it.

I didn't want to seem weak, that's why I bottled up all my feelings. Maybe it was hubris or self-preservation that made me do so. Because of this, we always fought.

I'm just a compartment in your life. My anger towards this fact was displaced. I became angry at you for petty reasons instead. Now you probably think I'm shallow. But you of all people should know I have my reasons.

I want to be part of your life. I want to meet your parents, it doesn't matter that they're separated. I want to hang out with you and your friends with their girlfriends. I want to be the person you run to when something's bothering you. I want you to know how I feel without me telling you. I'm not asking you to be a mind-reader, just be attuned with my feelings. I want you to fight for me. When we fight, please don't act as if you don't give a shit, as if it's easy for you to get rid of me.

Please don't make me like the demanding girls I despise. I guess now it's too late.

This relationship should be good for me, I shouldn't feel sad, miserable or angry. Heck, relationships shouldn't make anyone feel these. I should be happy. It's about time I let you go but I still feel I can't. I wish I have the strength to.

I love you so much. I wouldn't have introduced you to Papa if I didn't. I'm confused, I know I should let you go but I also wish that you won't make it easy for me. I want to fight for this relationship, but it feels like you don't want to.

Life's a soundtrack

2008-01-09T12:59:00.000+09:00

One year.

I'm not good at saying what I feel. In time, I'll muster the courage to tell you. There seems to be a need to keep it all in at this point. But I hope you know, I really don't have to voice it out.

You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in the fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
We'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in the fields of gold

See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in the fields of gold
We'll walk in the fields of gold

Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold

Christmas Party at Jaipur

2006-12-15T11:31:00.000+09:00

PSRC-RI Christmas Party
14 December 2006
Prince of Jaipur at the Fort

Ok, I'm not drunk. Nasilaw lang sa flash.
Faith, Me, Kath, Pops and Anj

Pops, Faith, Me, RR and Kath

CHuva, Me, Faith and Kath

ACCOUNTS: Mega B Team =)

My grandparents' golden wedding anniversary

2006-12-05T11:01:00.000+09:00

December 2, 2006.
Virginia and Alfonso, Sr. Magsanoc

I love my grandparents, they're so cute =)

Weekend shenanigans

2006-11-27T17:51:00.000+09:00

Shenanigans ang puta. Hehehe!

Friday.

Dinner and hang out with family. Meeting about my grandparents' upcoming golden wedding anniversary celebration. Drinking drinking.

Saturday.

Mall of Asia with family again. 20 plus ata kami non. Yess, reunion. Went to Baywalk then Metrowalk after. Then went to Ateneo High to check if my cousin went to the Soph's night. Then to Eastwood, then to Provident, then to Drew's. 8 stickers na lang for the Starbucks planner! The little engine that could, labo. :)

Sunday.

Lunch at Provident. Went out with cousins and played billiards. Drinking a little. Fun. First time talaga in 7 years na kumpleto kami! :)

Blog stuff.

You are The Emperor

Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person.

The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents
fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence
too.

The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthuiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

There's no other way to go but UP!

2006-11-24T14:04:00.000+09:00

I DARE YOU TO MOVE
Switchfoot

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I like it like that! =)

2006-11-19T21:18:00.000+09:00

17 November 2006

Since Angelo was going drama king on me, about me not hanging out with him for 2 1/2 years and neglecting him daw, he demanded that I spend the whole day with him. And so I did.

So we met up at Megamall in Powerbooks. I would have to say he really looks good. It made me wonder why nothing happened between us before. Hahaha! Actually, it was kind of sweet when he admitted to me na ever since we became friends, he liked me but then he was too scared to do anything that could affect our friendship.

Anyway, we had lunch at Mannang. We had tofu sisig, sinigang, garlic kangkong and barbeque. We were so full. Hehehe! After lunch, we had coffee and yo at Starbucks as we waited for the showing of Casino Royale. One thing I enjoyed doing with Angelo, even before, was hanging out. I forgot how we could talk about almost everything, how we'd argue about stuff just to get our way, how we'd agree eventually (but of course, he'd agree on what I said). Hehehe!

Anyway, watch Casino Royale. Best Bond movie after Sean Connery! =)

After watching Casino Royale, we went to Dencio's naman and talked, ate and drank. Saya, had fun talaga. I missed Angelo. Angelo = great conversation, intellectual, cultured, eloquent and hot. I like it like that! =)

***

After the date, I met up with Lora and Patrick at Tia Maria's. We went to Blufinn with Rex and Sig then to Patrick's house. Hang out hang out,

I feel sorry for you, your girlfriend looks like a man =)

2006-11-17T11:17:00.000+09:00

Wednesday.

Faith got promoted to Research Exec so we celebrated at Tibus. We meaning me, Faith (of course!), Kath, Pops, RR and Glen. Congratulations to Faith!

Thursday.

Went home early but then Tanya texted me. We went to Tia Maria's and stayed until 130 (me thinks). Dumaan lang si Margie Wargie, Mario and Pepe because buntis is making sleepy gestures. Saw Lora din, nakita daw niya si Greg and the girl-slash-boyfriend. Then she introduced us to her friends who later on stayed with us and invited us to Ortigas Friday night. In fairness, cute si Patrick and Mel.

Friday.

Ok, I'm excited because finally I get to hang out with Angelo. It's been years. =)

Pic namin ni Giane sa Tibus when we celebrated my 1.5 years!

Monday Schmonday

2006-11-14T12:02:00.000+09:00

Was about to step inside the elevator when the lights went out. Nagwork naman yung generator although pang elevator lang so hindi rin kami makapagtrabaho kaya pinauwi na lang kami. Yey! Hehe!

Anyway, went to Megamall with officemates (Anj, Faith, Peewee, Chuva, RR, Issa, Ces and Jay then sumunod si Julien) for lunch tapos nag-timezone kami. Linaro namin yung trivia na game, ang saya! Hehehe! Tapos nagbasketball din kami, galing ni Jay. Hehehe! After that, umalis na yung iba so natira na lang kami ni Anj, Faith and Issa. Tumambay sa Powerbooks tapos nagwindowshopping. First time nakapasok ng Girbaud and Guess si Anj! Hahaha! Tapos ayun since wala na kaming magawa, we decided to go home na rin.

Went to Warung Warung afterwards to hang out with Glads. We decided to hang out at Sweet Inspirations to drink. Aircon e. Hehehe! Then RR texted sabi sunod daw siya kasi apparently he chickened out on his date kasi may chaperone daw. So Glads went to Warung muna, tas sinamahan ako ni Bets sa Starbucks. Saw Chuck and Ria, papunta silang Cantina. So yun, hinatid muna kami ni Bets sa Warung, kumain si RR don tapos hinatid na kami ni Glads sa Cantina because text mate Chuck was waiting for us. Apparently Chuck and RR are friends, so small world. Hehehe! Pinag-usapan lang nila Numbalik Diwa. Syempre, can't relate. Tas umuwi na rin.

Ang haba ng araw ko pero masaya kasi walang trabaho. Hehehe! I love it!

PAIN.

2006-11-09T10:03:00.000+09:00

"Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope that the wound that caused it heals.

There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside.

Most of the time pain can be managed.

But sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it.

It's always below the belt and doesn't let up.

Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can't outrun it. And life always make more."

-- Meredith (Grey's Anatomy)

Baguio trip

2006-11-06T20:03:00.000+09:00

Na-postpone na naman ang date ko with Erick. Hehehe! Parang lagi na lang ganon, siguro sign na yun. Ika nga ni RR, divine intervention. Hahahaha!

Saturday Morning.

Ginising ako ng mga tita ko at sinabi nilang sama ako ng Baguio. Ang tagal ko na rin hindi nag-Baguio e kaya game! Stayed at the Jesuit Villas, sa tuktok ng Grotto. Ang ganda! Drinking drinking. Got sloshed. Smile. Hehehe!

Sunday.

Had breakfast then went to the cemetery then to mass. Whoa nagsimba ako ulit. Had lunch at Giligan's. In Fairness, cute ang waiter, kamukha niya si Piolo Pascual. Akala ko dati ang pangit pangit ni Piolo, hindi pala! Hehehe!

Isa paaa!

2006-11-03T20:59:00.000+09:00

Cont..

My 1.5 years of crap celebration =)

2006-11-03T20:55:00.000+09:00

Tibus. Celebrate! Woohhooo!

Dumplings!

2006-11-02T09:48:00.000+09:00

Medyo late na natapos sa work. Went to St. Francis Square last Tuesday with Kath and Anj. Saw Ces with Glen at the tiangge area. Hehehe! Huli! =)

After that we went to Megastrip for dumplings at Hap Chang. Yummy! Shrimp dumplings! Sumunod si Issa, Chuva and RR. After that, we drank at Dencio's. 4 for 100 yung beer. Then went home. Talked to Erick for awhile. I miss talking to him, sobrang funny mga hirit niya. He calls me "taba". Oh well, totoo naman. Hehehe, I call him Arabyano naman. =p

Water proof *evil grin*

November 1

Ninang, Tita Noc, Tito Lawrence, Jet and Tyrone went to our house. Ang cute ni baby Ty! I luuurrvvvee him so much. Baby baby! Hehehe!

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Hmmm, excited na ako mag-Saturday. I have a lunch date with Erick. Hehehe! I'm back in the game sistah!

More of the Infanta, Quezon Pics

2006-10-30T11:20:00.000+09:00

I LOVE THE BEACH

Island in the Sun
(Weezer)

When you're on a holiday
You can't find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And I wanna feel it too

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

(hip hip)

When you're on a golden sea
You don't need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

(hip hip)

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel fine
I can't control my brain...

I want A Series of Unfortunate Events!!!

2006-10-27T17:00:00.001+09:00

Read this one on CNN. They interviewed Daniel Handler a.k.a. Lemony Snicket about the last book of the series. They quoted the first lines of the book (The End)... I like!

"If you have ever peeled an onion, then you know that the first thin papery layer reveals another thin, papery layer, and that layer reveals another, and another, and before you know it you have hundreds of layers all over the kitchen table and thousands of tears in your eyes, sorry that you ever started peeling in the first place."

Friends friends

2006-10-26T20:17:00.000+09:00

My officemates ulit. Since I started working and...
they've become more than that. I love them.

I LUURVVE MY FRIENDS! *hearting them*

Sana makuha ko ulit yung pics kong iba na kasama ko yung high school barkada, benchmates, block barkada, basta friends. Wala lang, napapangiti ako. Hehe, cheesy I know.

Ramadan tradition

2006-10-26T12:31:00.000+09:00

Went to the Ramadan thing last Monday at Tanya's place with my officemates. Was kinda nervous about the turn out kasi initially puro mga high school friends ni Sel. Tapos yun, so I tried hard to make my officemates comfortable. Nakakatawa 'tong si Chuva, she asked me kung may mga kaibigan daw ba akong mahirap. Hehehe! Feeling ko yun yung palaging reaction ng mga taong sinasama ko sa bahay ni Tanya. Pang-MTV cribs itesh. Hehehe!

Anyway, ayun puro laugh trip. Good thing Candy went din kaya lang corny, she's been drinking na ng mga 4 in the afternoon so pag dating niya don lasheeeng na siya! Hahaha! Si Glen naman, I kinda expected na magugustuhan niya si Cands. He asked for her number yesterday, sabi ko ayaw ko nga! Hahaha! Baka i-try niya lang yung experiments niya with Candy.. Then again, as if naman papasa kay Candy diba!

Hmmm, asar-talo ako kay Chuva and RR. Basta up in the sky, it's a bird, it's a plane! And god, the net stockings! Short and flabby legs + net stockings = bagay!

***

Hmmm, last night naman went to Tibus with Kath, Chuva and RR. Lagi ko na lang silang kasama, but who's complaining? Wala diba! Fun times fun times!

I miss the beach

2006-10-25T18:22:00.000+09:00

Ok I love the beach. Nakakamiss talaga. Buti na lang talaga sumama ako sa officemates ko. Had fun talaga with them. Lots of Lambanog. Videoke. Food. Pictures.

Kath, Issa, Chuva, Moi, Anj and Ces
Infanta, Quezon
October 14-15 2006

Sobrang buti na lang sumama ako. Pucha, anong hindi pa ready?! Beach yan no! Hehehe!

I'm ok pero I can't say na never been better. Eventually I will be. I know so.