About time

I don't give up easily but I feel that I have to let go. I'll be ready soon, I hope.

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Smetimes some people get me wrong
When it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun
That's why you turn and run
But now I truly realise
Some people don't wanna compromise
Well I saw them with my own eyes
Spreading those lies
And well I don't wanna live my life
Too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights
I'm sorry to say baby

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
Things you say you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby
Don't listen to the games they play
Boy, I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other girls
Coz I saw them with my own eyes
You should've been more wise
And well I don't wanna live my life
Too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights
I'm sorry to say baby

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better dayI'm walking away

I'm getting tired, seriously. You say that I ask you to do things that are impossible. But if you really really love me, then they shouldn't be that hard. They were hard for me at first too but then I always thought you were worth it.

I didn't want to seem weak, that's why I bottled up all my feelings. Maybe it was hubris or self-preservation that made me do so. Because of this, we always fought.

I'm just a compartment in your life. My anger towards this fact was displaced. I became angry at you for petty reasons instead. Now you probably think I'm shallow. But you of all people should know I have my reasons.

I want to be part of your life. I want to meet your parents, it doesn't matter that they're separated. I want to hang out with you and your friends with their girlfriends. I want to be the person you run to when something's bothering you. I want you to know how I feel without me telling you. I'm not asking you to be a mind-reader, just be attuned with my feelings. I want you to fight for me. When we fight, please don't act as if you don't give a shit, as if it's easy for you to get rid of me.

Please don't make me like the demanding girls I despise. I guess now it's too late.

This relationship should be good for me, I shouldn't feel sad, miserable or angry. Heck, relationships shouldn't make anyone feel these. I should be happy. It's about time I let you go but I still feel I can't. I wish I have the strength to.

I love you so much. I wouldn't have introduced you to Papa if I didn't. I'm confused, I know I should let you go but I also wish that you won't make it easy for me. I want to fight for this relationship, but it feels like you don't want to.

Life's a soundtrack

One year.

I'm not good at saying what I feel. In time, I'll muster the courage to tell you. There seems to be a need to keep it all in at this point. But I hope you know, I really don't have to voice it out.

You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in the fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
We'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in the fields of gold

See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in the fields of gold
We'll walk in the fields of gold

Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold

Christmas Party at Jaipur

PSRC-RI Christmas Party
14 December 2006
Prince of Jaipur at the Fort

Ok, I'm not drunk. Nasilaw lang sa flash.
Faith, Me, Kath, Pops and Anj

Pops, Faith, Me, RR and Kath

CHuva, Me, Faith and Kath

ACCOUNTS: Mega B Team =)

My grandparents' golden wedding anniversary

December 2, 2006.
Virginia and Alfonso, Sr. Magsanoc

I love my grandparents, they're so cute =)

Weekend shenanigans

Shenanigans ang puta. Hehehe!

Friday.

Dinner and hang out with family. Meeting about my grandparents' upcoming golden wedding anniversary celebration. Drinking drinking.

Saturday.

Mall of Asia with family again. 20 plus ata kami non. Yess, reunion. Went to Baywalk then Metrowalk after. Then went to Ateneo High to check if my cousin went to the Soph's night. Then to Eastwood, then to Provident, then to Drew's. 8 stickers na lang for the Starbucks planner! The little engine that could, labo. :)

Sunday.

Lunch at Provident. Went out with cousins and played billiards. Drinking a little. Fun. First time talaga in 7 years na kumpleto kami! :)

Blog stuff.

You are The Emperor

Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person.

The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents
fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence
too.

The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthuiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

There's no other way to go but UP!

I DARE YOU TO MOVE
Switchfoot

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I like it like that! =)

17 November 2006

Since Angelo was going drama king on me, about me not hanging out with him for 2 1/2 years and neglecting him daw, he demanded that I spend the whole day with him. And so I did.



So we met up at Megamall in Powerbooks. I would have to say he really looks good. It made me wonder why nothing happened between us before. Hahaha! Actually, it was kind of sweet when he admitted to me na ever since we became friends, he liked me but then he was too scared to do anything that could affect our friendship.



Anyway, we had lunch at Mannang. We had tofu sisig, sinigang, garlic kangkong and barbeque. We were so full. Hehehe! After lunch, we had coffee and yo at Starbucks as we waited for the showing of Casino Royale. One thing I enjoyed doing with Angelo, even before, was hanging out. I forgot how we could talk about almost everything, how we'd argue about stuff just to get our way, how we'd agree eventually (but of course, he'd agree on what I said). Hehehe!



Anyway, watch Casino Royale. Best Bond movie after Sean Connery! =)



After watching Casino Royale, we went to Dencio's naman and talked, ate and drank. Saya, had fun talaga. I missed Angelo. Angelo = great conversation, intellectual, cultured, eloquent and hot. I like it like that! =)



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After the date, I met up with Lora and Patrick at Tia Maria's. We went to Blufinn with Rex and Sig then to Patrick's house. Hang out hang out,

I feel sorry for you, your girlfriend looks like a man =)

Wednesday.

Faith got promoted to Research Exec so we celebrated at Tibus. We meaning me, Faith (of course!), Kath, Pops, RR and Glen. Congratulations to Faith!

Thursday.

Went home early but then Tanya texted me. We went to Tia Maria's and stayed until 130 (me thinks). Dumaan lang si Margie Wargie, Mario and Pepe because buntis is making sleepy gestures. Saw Lora din, nakita daw niya si Greg and the girl-slash-boyfriend. Then she introduced us to her friends who later on stayed with us and invited us to Ortigas Friday night. In fairness, cute si Patrick and Mel.

Friday.

Ok, I'm excited because finally I get to hang out with Angelo. It's been years. =)

Pic namin ni Giane sa Tibus when we celebrated my 1.5 years!

Monday Schmonday

Was about to step inside the elevator when the lights went out. Nagwork naman yung generator although pang elevator lang so hindi rin kami makapagtrabaho kaya pinauwi na lang kami. Yey! Hehe!

Anyway, went to Megamall with officemates (Anj, Faith, Peewee, Chuva, RR, Issa, Ces and Jay then sumunod si Julien) for lunch tapos nag-timezone kami. Linaro namin yung trivia na game, ang saya! Hehehe! Tapos nagbasketball din kami, galing ni Jay. Hehehe! After that, umalis na yung iba so natira na lang kami ni Anj, Faith and Issa. Tumambay sa Powerbooks tapos nagwindowshopping. First time nakapasok ng Girbaud and Guess si Anj! Hahaha! Tapos ayun since wala na kaming magawa, we decided to go home na rin.

Went to Warung Warung afterwards to hang out with Glads. We decided to hang out at Sweet Inspirations to drink. Aircon e. Hehehe! Then RR texted sabi sunod daw siya kasi apparently he chickened out on his date kasi may chaperone daw. So Glads went to Warung muna, tas sinamahan ako ni Bets sa Starbucks. Saw Chuck and Ria, papunta silang Cantina. So yun, hinatid muna kami ni Bets sa Warung, kumain si RR don tapos hinatid na kami ni Glads sa Cantina because text mate Chuck was waiting for us. Apparently Chuck and RR are friends, so small world. Hehehe! Pinag-usapan lang nila Numbalik Diwa. Syempre, can't relate. Tas umuwi na rin.

Ang haba ng araw ko pero masaya kasi walang trabaho. Hehehe! I love it!

PAIN.

"Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope that the wound that caused it heals.

There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside.

Most of the time pain can be managed.

But sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it.

It's always below the belt and doesn't let up.

Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can't outrun it. And life always make more."

-- Meredith (Grey's Anatomy)